2 weeks of Sofia!

Well, obviously my original post turned out to be quite a fib. I mentioned that Justin created the blog but that I would be the one blogging and clearly that has not been the case. Lucky for me, I have the most wonderful husband who has done an incredible job documenting these past 2 weeks of our life with Sofia. After he told me he posted about Sofia's birth, I thought for sure I would have some things to add, but he literally covered every detail! I can share a little of what I was feeling that day though...That day for me felt like I was in a dream state.  I went in on the morning of December 9th, knowing there was a 50/50 chance we were going to meet our daughter. It seemed so bizarre to me to have something partly scheduled but not 100% certain. While I kept telling myself she wasn't going to be born that day, deep down I knew she was.  As Justin said earlier, Sofia was never meant to turn head down. She knew exactly what she was doing all along by staying breached and in hindsight I wish we had never tried to take things into our own hands to turn her. It was a horrific couple of minutes watching the doctors and seeing the expressions on my husband and mom's face. After the first couple of seconds, I knew that the version wasn't going to work, and that a c section was likely going to happen. My heart was so heavy and already grieving the loss of a natural birth, but when Sofia's heart rate dropped and they put the oxygen mask on me, all the grieving over a c section left me and my only concern was Sofia. All I wanted was for her to stop hurting and for her little heart rate to stabilize. At that moment, I knew with 100% certaintly that Sofia was meant to be born via c section and I have had peace about it ever since.

Fast forward 2 weeks.. I LOVE all things about being a mom to this precious little girl and I have thanked the Lord more times than I can count in a day. My favorite time with her is actually in the middle of the night. As exhausting as it is, as every new mother knows, I absolutely love the fact that it is just me, daddy, Sofia and total silence. During the day, our house is quite busy and loud. Aside from all the friends who have visited and brought us delicious meals,  my whole family is here, and we literally just pass Sofia around from one person's arms to the next. I would not change this for the world though.  I love watching my brother, sister and parents melt with one look at Sofia. Last night the 6 of us literally hovered over my dad as he pretended to exercise Sofia's arms and legs. We were all frozen in that moment just watching our beautiful little girl.

And then there is my love. Watching Justin with Sofia brings tears to my eyes. He is the most gentle, loving, protective father, who is such a natural at being a parent it kinda makes me look bad!  In the hospital, he literally was teaching me how to change her diaper and swaddle her! I love every interaction between daddy and Sofia and hate when he has to leave for work every morning.

The Christmas season for me has often focused on all the wrong things. I have gotten wrapped up in the shopping, gift giving/recieving, etc. and rarely stopped to reflect on the real reason we celebrate Christmas;  to celebrate the birth and life of Jesus Christ. I have always acknowledged Him during this time,  but only for a few minutes here and there. This year, with Sofia coming right before Christmas, has changed everything for me. All the wordly things have been put out of my mind and I have found myself in the word reading the real story of Christmas and giving thanks to such a loving God for giving the greatest gift to the world, His one and only Son, to give us hope and salvation. My only prayer is that I continue to make Christ the focus of my life year round and not just in December.